feel inspired to share this amazing testimony here with you. Maybe someone
needs to hear this to feel encouraged and be strengthened in faith. No matter
what your situation looks like right now, trust that circumstances, people’s
hearts, and every situation are in God’s power.
my friend & associate Anzhelika and I met several years ago, she lived 80
miles away from me. Every weekend she made a long trip to Sonoma County to
visit me; often her trip took 3-3.5 hrs due to traffic. After a while, when we
began considering about having her move to Sonoma County, I went to my
apartments manager to ask about the availability of a 2-bedroom apartment on
the first floor.
manager said there were no apartments available, and there would be no openings
in the near future. I knew though, if there was Father’s will that we would
move in together, the Lord could re-arrange the availability. So Anzhelika and
I began praying for God to make an apartment available for us if there was
truly His will for us to live together. In my prayer, I also shared with the
Lord how much I wished to see sunsets from my home window, and asked Him to
arrange an apartment that would have at least one room’s windows facing the
West, if possible.
🙂 Despite manager’s assurance that there wouldn’t be any availability in a
year or two, in 2 weeks one apartment became available for new tenants –
2-bedroom apartment on the first floor! And, it had ALL windows facing the
love our new home!
God has the final word, not the circumstances. He
can change any circumstances. If something seems impossible, before you accept
it as truth, first get down on the knees of your heart before the Lord. He is powerful,
He can change your situation. When
there is Father’s will for something – He will make it happen regardless of
actual facts that you are facing right now.
“ Do not be anxious about
anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with
thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.And the
peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts
and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-8 (ESV)
Jesus looked at them and said, “With man
this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 (ESV)
This week, I want to share with you a video from the New
Beginnings church in Portland, OR, where I shared several testimonies from my
life about how God turns everything to the good in the life of those who love
God and whom He has chosen according to His purpose. It deeply surprised me
when I noticed for the first time that experiences that seemed bad to me were
actually for my benefit. And now, 15 years since that time, I see this in my
life as a law. The Lord never ceases to amaze me! And so, by sharing this, I
want to encourage you.
Romans 8:28 NKJV: “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
As I was in the process of restoring my life after the car
accident, so many times hopelessness was staring at me with its cold gaze.
There were so many difficulties and problems! There were days and even years
when it seemed to me that the Lord did not hear my prayers. I knew that He saw
what I was experiencing, but I could not understand why there were no answers
to some of my prayers, why the Lord was silent.
There were times when I told the Lord that He misunderstood
me – this was not what I wanted. 🙂 From time to time, I just couldn’t
understand what God was doing in my life. Many times I stood before my Lord in
tears, asking Him: “Why, Lord? Why am I going through this, why this had to happen?”
And then, I would say to Him: “No matter what happens, I
trust you, Lord. I know that you see everything, and you are a just God, and
you know much better what’s good for me. Please give me the strength to get
through this time.” And I would pull myself together and continued making every
effort in everything I worked on, and patiently waited for what would happen
Interestingly, after my prayer, my circumstances did not
change immediately, but I received inner strength to withstand the hardships
and felt my enthusiasm and boldness increased. I had the endurance to persevere
and attain my goals and improve my situation. At times it took me enormous
effort to make the smallest step. Nevertheless, I continued making step after
step, no matter how difficult it was. And I kept on going, despite the length
of my desert and the storms that I had to endure. I kept on going until I
reached my vision.
And what an amazing revelation it was to see that everything
— including hard times, trials, difficulties and even destruction and even my
mistakes — all worked together for good, as it is written in the Bible in
It was the fourth year after the accident when I first
noticed it. I was already in California. I was outside, enjoying the sunny
weather. Wearing my comfortable prosthetic legs, I reflected on my life, being
deeply in awe of how incredibly my circumstances changed. When I thought about
the sequence of events and how they affected my life, suddenly I realized – I
would not have the blessing that I had if I had received the answer to my
prayers when I wanted and how I wanted it!
I clearly saw that it was my pain, combined with the deep
disappointment that made me look for help internationally. Not having received
the help from local specialists, on the Internet I began to look for help in
other countries. So it turns out that I would not have looked for help and I would
not have met an American prosthetics specialist if it were not for that
unbearable pain and hopelessness! It turns out that disappointment and despair indeed
worked for the better.
During those two years, at times I would say to God in
prayer, “Lord, I trust you so wholeheartedly. Why do you not answer my prayers?
Why are You silent?” It seemed to me that God did not hear my prayers and did
not give any answers. But it turns out that the Lord did hear me and He was
already answering, I just did not know it. His answer to my request and my dream
came to me in a different way and at a different time than I wanted. The Lord
had a much more beautiful plan for my life, and He was fulfilling it. It was a
plan that I could not even imagine in my dreams!
Moreover, the most interesting thing is that the
hopelessness and my relentless perseverance to find a way and wait for the
answer from the Lord brought me from Europe to sunny California – the place that
had a perfect climate and fully accessible environment for people in wheelchairs!
It brought me across the globe from not accessible environment to a fully
accessible place, where I could become independent again and live a full life!
God had a plan for my life, a plan to restore my life after the car accident,
and His plan was so much better than mine.
It was the first time I saw the value in hardship, pain, and
despair. Frankly, it was quite unusual and hard to admit it. However, I was
sincerely grateful for those dark years of hard work and countless hours of
intense training, learning to walk with artificial limbs that left me
exhausted, with bruises, wounds, and swollen thighs. I felt grateful for the
disappointment and hopelessness because that’s the reason I began making radical
changes in the way I approached my goal, and begin seeking help at the
international level. And so, my dream came true and now I was in a country
where I could live a full life.
After realizing that difficulties and pain were for my
benefit, I began to pay close attention to what was happening behind the events
and circumstances, and where they ultimately led me. Instead of focusing on how
painful and difficult it was, I began to observe what was behind these
difficulties. And, again and again I saw that the events that occurred, people
I’ve met, and various experiences that took place played a key role in my life,
and, to my surprise, all of this really somehow worked together for good. More
interestingly, particularly those events that seemed destructive or times that
seemed like endless valleys of difficulties, led me to my ultimate dream. Even my
mistakes had a precious value in my life.
Even though it was very difficult to go through some periods
of life, they left a very valuable imprint on my life. Through difficulties and
circumstances that seemed absolutely hopeless, the Lord taught me to trust Him.
When it seemed to me that I was at a dead end and that there was no way out,
the Lord showed me that absolutely everything is under His authority – He has
people’s hearts and creates new opportunities, even if it seems impossible.
Although it was very difficult to experience hopelessness, today I am sincerely
grateful for it because it showed me how the Lord is always there with you in
the midst of it and He creates a way out; He is never late and provides help.
Difficulties and hopelessness taught me to fully trust God.
Now I see problems as another opportunity to see how great
the Lord is, the opportunity to experience another testimony. And the harder
the problem is, the bigger and more interesting the testimony will be!
I want to make a note on very important detail – God is
faithful, and He will do what He says, but we also have a great responsibility
for what happens in our lives. God has His good, acceptable and perfect will
for our lives (Romans 12: 2), but the Lord has given us the freedom of choice,
and very much depends on our choices.
Since this is a big topic, I will post about it next week.
And, for now, if you are experiencing struggle and nothing changes no matter
how much you pray about your difficulties, be encouraged and hold on to your
hope through faith. You do not know what God is doing in your life, and where
He is leading you. Certain events have a significant impact on our lives, and
yes, it’s scary when bad things happen. Events and circumstances have the power
to shape our destiny, and this can cause concern and anxiety when they do not
develop in the way we expected. We feel and see only what we experience at the
moment. This is where your faith must step in – walk by faith, and not by what
is actually happening at the moment.
2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV: For we walk by faith, not by sight.
Trust your God that He is just and sees everything.
Sometimes God does not change our situation because He changes us. Sometimes
difficulties and certain circumstances direct our path in the certain direction
which is according to His will. Nothing in our lives happen ‘just because’.
There is a reason and a purpose behind everything. It is critically important
for us to be obedient to God, to the way He leads us. Sometimes you have to
completely trust Him, do nothing and wait. And sometimes you have to be strong
Keep going. Be sure to do your best in everything you are
working on, and patiently wait for the answer from the Lord.
By faith. Faith is the key that opens the door. Faith is the bridge that connects us to God. Faith is what brings answers to our prayers. As a car without gas will not go anywhere, so a prayer without faith will not bear fruit.
I attended church for several years and heard many sermons about faith, but I learned to have unshakable faith only after a car accident, when I began to change my way of thinking and decided to rely on God and act based on my faith.
When I lost almost half of my body in a car accident, I found myself in a total despair. My family and friends showered me with unconditional love, but there was a dark hopelessness when it came to my future. Since my home city did not have any wheelchair access, losing my legs meant losing my independence and my life. At that point, I had no other choice but to have the faith like a child that God could do the impossible, and I began to live by faith. That’s when I began putting my faith into practice. My faith grew when I did not just hear or read about it, but when I began thinking and acting according to my faith. And I started seeing how the answers to my prayers were being fulfilled in an absolutely incredible way.
One of the highest values I have gained through hopelessness and difficulties is that they taught me to trust God and rely on Him more than on anything else, and therefore my faith has become stronger than ever before.
Now I accept every difficult situation as an opportunity to see the power of God and experience how He arranges everything in a precise order and timeline.
This week I am inspired to share one of my last testimonies and talk about faith. This testimony is connected with other testimonies that I have had over the years, which show how, according to my faith, the Lord has provided what I needed and when I needed it. Since I lost my legs in a car accident, I need to move in a wheelchair. Electric wheelchairs in the United States cost from $3,000 to $10,000 and even up to $30,000, and this is how the Lord took care of this need when I did not have that kind of money to buy a wheelchair and did not have medical insurance to obtain it. We recorded a video when this testimony took place; watch the video!
This video is about only one aspect of my life. Throughout the years, the Lord provided and took care of me in every aspect of my life. When 14 years ago I decided to leave my home country of Lithuania and fly to California to establish my life in the USA, people asked me how I would be able independently move around in the city in a manual wheelchair (it’s very hard when you can operate only with one hand), where I would live, where I would work, and in general, how I would survive there while my family is across the globe in Europe. I did not have answers to any of those questions. I said, “I will know the answers when I am already there.” I trusted that the Lord would provide everything I needed.
Many say “you are so brave,” but the truth is that it’s not that I am just naturally brave. My courage comes from fully trusting God. I relied on Him having absolutely no doubts. My mindset was not “I will see IF I can establish my life there” but “I will see HOW I can.”
I did not hope. I knew.
For many years, the Lord took care of me in an amazing way. In addition to my physical limitations, I also had no place to live, no money, no work, and no guarantees at all to establish my life in the USA, and I was never homeless, I’ve never had to look for work and I’ve never had the lack of what I needed; everything came to me at the time when it was needed. I was always surrounded by wonderful people and my friends’ circle rapidly grew. When I needed assistance with getting a ride or any other need, people graciously offered their help.
Also, I’ve never lost my job, even when in 2008 the USA had suffered a big economic crisis and countless people were losing their jobs and homes. It seemed that economic crisis like a tornado was sweeping everything it found on its way and it passed by me and never came even close to me. The Lord protected me from any disease, flu epidemics or harm.
My life is full of examples when various situations were solved inexplicably. Maybe someone will say “this is a coincidence,” but there are no such incredible coincidences, and there are so many of them that then I can say that my whole life is a great coincidence. I am confident that our faith creates these so-called random coincidences.
Our prayer and unwavering faith is a great power that can do the impossible. I completely trusted my God, was unshakable in faith and waited for the answer, even when it seemed that circumstances were absolutely hopeless. Of course, I did not sit idly just dreaming about a good life. I always persevered, made relentless efforts and worked hard to achieve my goals. But it is my God who has given me the inner strength, wisdom, favorable circumstances and the ability to create the life that I have now.
I have tears of joy in my eyes while I write this for you. Heavenly Father cares for those who believe in Him.
Mark 9:23: Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”
Philippians 4:6: Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.
The Lord knows it all. He knows what is necessary for you. He knows the deepest pain of your heart. He knows your every thought. He comes on time and He is never late. Only we need to have unshakable faith and trust / rely on the Lord.
WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO HAVE UNWAVERING FAITH AND TRUST THE LORD?
I could never understand what it meant to trust God until I found myself in a hopeless situation, and instead of succumbing to fear, doubt and depression, I decided to trust God with all my essence – with my heart and my mind. No matter what the real facts were around me, and what people told me, I still hoped for God to deliver me out of despair. I counted on God, as a child relies on his dad. It was a conscious decision to trust in the Lord. And I waited and expected for His response, no matter what.
As I was anticipating for the answer from the Lord, I began paying attention to how I felt and what was happening in my life after my prayers. And, I began to notice the change. Sometimes I was inspired to do something and acted upon my inspiration, and it led me to new opportunities. Sometimes other people influenced my situation and it created new circumstances and possibilities. Every change had its own sequence of actions and events, but the fact was right before me and I couldn’t deny it – I began seeing answers to my prayers! As it’s written in Psalm 37:3 “…Feed on His faithfulness,” I held in my heart how He would answer my requests and blessed me, my faith grew and I began being confident in the Lord more and more. Thus, I have learned to trust the Lord. With time my faith was developing. And no matter what circumstances I was going through, the Lord was always faithful. My confidence in the Lord never failed me.
Faith in God is not some superficial thoughts of some mystical power called God, who is somewhere high up looking at everyone and, perhaps, will help, or maybe not. The prayer of faith is not a superficial prayer as a mere ritual, while you are full of doubt, fear or anticipation of something bad to happen. Many have such faith, but it doesn’t do any good and such prayer does not bring any changes. In fact, quite often opposite happens – you get what you’re afraid of, as it’s written in Psalm 37: 8 “…Do not fret – it only causes harm.”
Trust in God is a mindset of the full confidence in the Lord allowing no doubt, no matter what is actually going on around you. Trusting the Lord / confidence in the Lord is an inner state of complete peace and confidence that your God will take care of you.
Faith is a certain way of thinking when you have a clear conscious understanding that our physical realm depends on the spiritual realm, and when you bring your need to God in the name of Jesus, there are changes in the spiritual world, and it will be manifested in the physical world.
Prayer is not a superficial ritual for you to feel better. Prayer of faith in the name of Jesus Christ has the power to change you and your circumstances.
There is a big difference between “Believe that God exists” and “Trust the Lord.” In other words, believing that God exists and trusting God/relying on Him, are two completely different things. When you have a close person in your life, who loves you very much, and whom you trust completely, and who you can rely on – what does it feel like when it comes to your connection with this person, what are your expectations from this relationship? You know that you can always count on this person, right? It’s the same with trusting God. It’s when you not only believe that God exists, but you count on Him, even if you do not see Him. To trust God is a choice. It’s a decision. And you can trust Him, because He does not change, He is faithful to his word.
FAITH IS AN ABSOLUTE CONFIDENCE
Many people are very quick to give up on their faith in God when, after the prayer, they do not get the answer they want. They come to the conclusion that God does not hear, does not answer, and that generally it’s pointless to pray at all, because prayer does not make any changes.
Many prefer not to hope too much so they don’t get disappointed if this does not happen. For many years I also had this kind of a mindset, because disappointments are very painful. But I learned that by doubting I can become my own enemy! We must make efforts to resist thoughts of doubts and anxieties and hold on tight to faith, because our doubts can jeopardize our ability to receive the answer to our prayer.
But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord. ”(James 1: 6-7)
Faith is not “I hope so …” and it is not “Well, maybe… we’ll see …” And faith has nothing to do with “If …” or how realistic it is to have what we pray for.
Faith is the absolute certainty that the Lord will give the answer, no matter what the situation is.
Faith is an inner knowledge and, finally, an absolute conviction, when you can say to yourself without a doubt: “It doesn’t matter that I have no idea how this can be solved.
But I know that my God is powerful, nothing is impossible for Him, and He will take care of everything.”
EXPECT FOR THE ANSWER
Just believing and believing with expectation are two different things. Faith with expectation is when you are absolutely sure that you will receive the answer, and this is just a matter of time. Since you do not know when this will happen, you expect a response any day, any time.
Suppose you believe that your friends or family members will come to visit you at some point. But how would you feel if they told you that they have bought tickets already, and everything is ready for the trip, but they won’t say when they will come, because they want to surprise you? You will not only believe that they will come, but you will also expect their arrival, because they can call you on any day and say: “We are already in your city, see you soon!”
When you live in expectation, your faith moves to another level.
This is the faith that brought incredible answers into my life.
Be strong. Be steadfast in faith. Those who trust in the Lord will not be ashamed!
Have you ever had the experience when it seemed to you like some invisible hand moved events and circumstances in your favor like in a chess game? Throughout the years I have experienced this numerous times. It astonished me every single time. This time though, I ended my day being simply astounded. To be honest, when I was thinking about this incredible experience, I had a feeling that this happened for me to share with others, so they’d know that their Heavenly Father has it all under control and He takes care of them. Somehow, when I opened my email to send this testimony, I knew by name who I needed to send this to. After sending it to them, many responded to me thanking me for sharing, saying “Perfect timing! This is exactly what I needed to hear!” It’s been several days I have on my heart to share this with you as well. Maybe you are going through the time when you need to hear exactly This.
Just recently, in San Francisco Bay Area we had this harsh rain storm. Rainy storms here in Northern California are very much different than what I had ever experienced when I was living in Europe – they are much stronger. I still went to work, because I had scheduled a meeting that day, which I did not want to cancel. After hearing Weather news in the morning about the storm getting much stronger that afternoon, I decided to leave the office earlier to get home safe before it gets worse. I move around using electric wheelchair AKA my Beemer (BMW:) (I am the fastest pedestrian in the city 🙂 ), and it’s not good for the chair to get wet for the battery and a joystick that controls the chair. Besides, it’s quite dangerous for me to be out in the strong wind when with my one hand I have to hold the joystick that controls the chair and hold my umbrella at the same time. Since my left hand is paralyzed, often I need to be creative to be able to do things. In this case, I figured out a way to be out in the rain without getting soaking wet, but during the storm the smartest choice for me is to stay home. And so here I am speeding home as fast as I can, the rain starts pouring hard, the wind gets rapidly stronger, and as I am just 5 min away from home…suddenly my wheelchair STOPS DEAD. I look at the joystick…it’s flashing. The wheelchair is dead. I am sitting outside, the rain is pouring down so strong that you can see bubbles on the street, and it’s windy cold. I am trying to call my technician – he does not answer the phone and his voice box is full. I am trying to call another number – no answer as well.
“OK. Now what?”
My first thought – Thank God the wheelchair stopped right next to Trader Joe’s entrance doors (!!) and its roof was above me! So I was protected from getting immediately soaking wet. Then, I am sitting there, thinking “God… what am I going to do now..?! Who’s going to come out to help me in this rain..? What should I do?” My wheelchair never stopped like this while I am outside. A series of thoughts came through my mind in a flash – how can I get out of this situation, wonder why Lord allowed this to happen…this is too strange, who can possibly help me, what is the best way to get home and so on.
After a moment, I look at the entrance doors to see who I could ask for help, and suddenly I see staff’s head popping out and I hear:
“Inga! Hi! I read the article about you, great story!!”
I could not believe this – that was the store’s staff, whom I see all the time when I shop at Trader Joe’s.
“Bob!!! Wow, it’s you! Can you help me??”, caught by another, but this time a pleasant surprise, I asked him for help.
He immediately came out and after explaining to him what happened, I asked him if he could wheel me to help me get home, which was only 5 min away.
“Sure! No problem Inga!” , Bob enthusiastically responded.
Other staff came out as well, loaned him the rain jacket, we released the power to make my Beemer as a manual chair, and Bob wheeled me home. On the way home, I find out that he was on his day off and he just happened to be at the store and by accident saw me. He reassured me that he was happy to help, and didn’t mind this weather – he was a fisherman and this kind of weather was not a problem for him at all, since he has seen much worse in the ocean.
As I was on my way, my technician calls me back, and after hearing that my wheelchair just shut down dead in the middle of the storm, says “I will be right there Inga”. My technician came to my place right when I myself got there (normally it is nearly impossible to have a wheelchair tech man come right away) to take a look at the chair what have happened. Apparently, the problem was with the joystick – it got too wet. It happened (!!) he had an extra one in his car and after he changed it, my Beemer was up and running like before. Also, he told me that I caught him at the perfect time – he happened to be in my area (!!) and so that’s the reason he was able to come so fast. Actually, he was just about to leave up North to see his client right before I called, and if I had called later, he would not have been able to come out and help.
So, after having my wheelchair breaking down in the middle of the storm, very quickly I was back home safe and my Beemer was fixed right away. And yes, my cat Musette was also happy to have her Momma back home and giving her treats earlier than she usually gets them. 🙂
Now, tell me how could this be…. my electric wheelchair stops damaged right in front of Trader Joe’s entrance (what would it be like if it stopped on a busy street that I just crossed a minute ago..?!), the staff who knows me quite well happens to be there on his day off and he by accident saw me right that moment when I was looking who I could ask to help me, technician was in my area right before he drove away to another county and he came to me right away to check the wheelchair AND he had an extra the same kind of joystick, which immediately fixed my wheelchair.
God’s Angels are watching over me. 🙂
It’s incredible. Who can take care of us better than our God Father? He has it all in His power. My family is across the globe, but I do feel like I am taken care of; I have my heavenly Father who is wherever I am and who protects me, cares for me and blesses me abundantly. I have experienced literally countless testimonies of God’s care for many years now.
Sharing this testimony, I want to encourage you – your life is in the hands of your Heavenly Father. Your circumstances, situations, problems, difficulties, anything that concerns or worries you, your sleepless nights, your every single tear and absolutely EVERYTHING is known to your God Father. He is going to take care of it. Just trust Him.
29 Are not two sparrows sold for a copper coin? And not one of them falls to the ground apart from your Father’s will. 30 But the very hairs of your head are all numbered. 31 Do not fear therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows. (Matthew 10:29-31)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)
If you know someone who needs to read this, would you please pass this along? Sometimes simple thing like this kind of message can make a big difference for another person.
Blessings to you…. And as always, be strong. Be determined and persistent. Be unstoppable.
And always keep in mind that with God all things are possible.